How Shall I Decide?

I deserve my time.
It's the only thing I have,
Shouldn't it be mine?

Income is needed,
More than to survive, only...
Until debts are paid

Why must time be owed?
Name of the game: plug the holes
Preserve what remains

How to spend my time?
On me? Fam'ly? World progress?
How shall I decide?

Hedon? Altruist?
Objectivism seems right.
Selfish in service.

Selfishness writ large:
To leave life without regrets.
What do most regret?

Time wasted working.
not the working, the wasting.
What work isn't waste?

Ikigai... Closer...
But still not yet specific...
How shall I decide?

"Everything Is Fucked!"
"Thinking Brain" isn't driving,
"Feeling Brain" is mute.

Spend time pondering...
(Ironic) Mapping my "why"...
Uncomfortable.

Act like a B.A.
Treat myself like the client,
Who has no idea.

Ask all the questions
Elicit requirements
Force me to decide:

How I want to live my retirement.